Its not a resolution...

because if I call it that, it won't work. I really need to get into gear. My jeans that used to be loose and hung off my butt are now tight! I'm too scared to step on the scale, I think I might be back up to what I was in junior high/high school. I take full responsibility for what happened. I hardly ever exercise, make desserts all the time (damm you yummy vegan desserts!) and just generally choose activities that don't require much exercise. I need to get off my butt! I don't like running outside or anything. We have an elliptical trainer at home, but its covered with boxes and stuff lol.
I've been looking at the YMCA page for my city, I think I might consider joining. They're open pretty early and late, so I could go before class or at night when I'm not working. I just need to make sure I'd make good use of it! At least you can pay for membership by month, so if its a flop I don't lose as much money. Maybe Billy would join with me, so I would have a workout buddy and wouldn't feel as self-conscious. Of course, he doesn't really need to lose any weight, he's great just the way he is!


I hate the way I feel all the time, like a blimp.
:(

And my eating habits need to change too. I eat a lot of healthy food, but I also eat a lot of not so healthy food. I think the biggest change I need to make is to stop making any desserts at all until I'm on the right path again. And portion control!! I'm going to miss baking. I actually enjoy baking more than I do eating the stuff! I would be fine just making it all and having to give it all away, then it wouldn't be there to tempt me!


Does anyone read this blog?? If so, please leave a comment so I'll know :P